Some musings added

I've added a few of my papers I've done for various classes I've taken as well as one piece of more creative writing (however it's based on a real event, so I wouldn't call it fiction). They are all in PDF format, so there should be no problem with compatibility and also they should nicely open inside your browser. Enjoy.

magick

As I walked down the street the dull glow from the street lights gave an almost ethereal quality to the road in front of me. One light flickered, spurted and went out. Why does it seem that when you're in a certain state of mind, one heady with emotion and energy, lights go out around you? It's probably just coincidental, I can't help but wonder. I even take it to the point where I try and make the next couple do the same, which happens to be the reason I believe it to merely be coincidence; I just can't ever make any other light go off consciously. There are enough strange synchronicities throughout my life, however, to keep me guessing. Too much happens outside my understanding, or ability to perceive that I can't rule much out. For the most part it's just one big guessing game. Lucky for me my brain (and yours I assume) was formed by Nature and so, again with the assumptions, I feel it's safe to say that it's a powerful tool 'designed' for the very purpose of prediction, understanding and information accumulation/integration. So often, in our regular discourse, we separate emotional content from semantics. But when you really start to look into yourself, or understand anything in relation to motivation, be it an animal, insect, plant, microbe, or dynamic system, it becomes apparent that emotion is something that cannot be separated from any analysis. Of course, this makes things much more complicated as undoubtedly you would want to say that emotion is subjective (therefore requiring a subject) and can't be studied empirically, so we have no choice but to remove it from any attempt at prediction. Subjectivity only goes so far and when the whole is considered there is no subject and so no subjectivity. When self is removed from the equation subjectivity becomes moot, but as you know, it takes a lifetime to be able to move beyond self, if it's ever really possible for a human to do so. There are monks who spend every day of their lives trying to see things without a singular perspective and to return to a holistic understanding. If only I could live forever.

Japanese Slang Term for the Week

Gennama. comes from a mixture of: gen (money), and nama (raw or fresh).
slang: Money.

Gennama ima motte koi! Hand over the cash now!

other words that are used for money within the underworld are hingo (protection) or riki (convenience), as well as others.

Omae no higo iranē zo! I don't need your fucking cash!

Sono riki ore ni watasanē to, buchikorosu zo! If you don't hand over the dinero I'll beat the shit outa you!

Really?

So there I was standing on the corner confused. Which direction was I going in? The answer was defiantly not forthcoming. Apparently I wasn't hiding my befuddled state very well. I noticed someone watching me, he knew. Starting towards me, I was beginning to feel as if I should make my mind up not wanting to interact with anyone, while something inside me held me in place; a feeling completely opposite to my original impulse. Again with the indecision. Often it's not the individual who makes the choices, but the constant motion which directs. I left it to my feet and the man to make my mind up for me. He was wearing a black leather jacket, with a bit of sheen to it, a white button up shirt underneath, with black pants and was quite well groomed. In other words, he looked like he knew something others didn't, or at least more than I. The very fact he made a motion towards something was descriptive of his prowess. Sometimes you can become enticed by that sort of behaviour. It's something many of us wish was so easy, so effortless. Why couldn't I move that way? Why am I not able to look effortless? Was it a skill I had never learned? I don't think an answer to that question existed, but I was unable to put it out of my mind. Then, as if all things had stopped, one object moving far more quickly than it should have been, or really was, destroyed his black leather jacket and muddied it's sheen. His well groomed hair became matted with redness and he no longer looked so... defined. I stood there and all I could think of was, what if I had chosen?

hooza?

whuzza? I'm not sure what's up. For some reason, even though I don't have any clue what I want to write I felt like posting something, if nothing but to update the date. There is probably a bunch I could put down here, but it's far too cluttered right now to make any sense of it. Perhaps it'll drool out over the next few days. Nothing too exciting just school and work take up a lot of my effort it seems. I've also been out having fun here and there; bbq here, movie there and a wedding sprinkled over top for flavour.

Japanese Slang Term for the Week

Missed it last week, but here it is anew.

Himo. "string or rope"
slang: Pimp.

usages and variations:

Ore Ken ga himo da nante, shiranakatta ze! Yaru jan! I didn't know Ken was a pimp! Wild!

Omē koko de nani yatte'n da yo? Penisu no shōnin ka? What are you doing around here? You selling women or something?

Some yuppie Tokyo girls have started using it to jokingly refer to their poor student boyfriends.

Atashi no ima made no himo'tte, ii kao wa shite'n da yo nē, minna! All my boyfriends have always been pretty but poor!

Day o' disc golf

Long day, but a good one. Went to saltspring island today with my friend Zeb with his girlfriend Alicia and her mom, shaukty (no idea how to spell her name). They were going to a get together at the Centre of Saltspring, which is also the centre of Yoga there and has a very neat yogi (whom I didn't get to meet but heard some of his responses to people's questions). Zeb picked me up at 7am and we biked to fernwood to meet our ride. Zeb and I were going there to have a day of disc golf and we managed to get 3 runs in and a couple games of crib here and there. Much fun was had by all. I really should post more about it, because it was quite a busy day, but I've been out in the sun the whole time and up since the crack of dawn and am way too tired to type :). We're considering going to pender in a couple weeks, on our bikes and taking a crack at their course (which I hear is quite good). We shall see.